I might keep writing physically and inserting a photo or a word reader here.
Rambling below:
Today was a mf day. Just testing this thing. Looks nicer than the other ones I’ve tried thus far. I just really like seeing the physical notebook getting filled is my only problem. I’m gonna paste today’s driving notes below from iPhone notes.
Neil degrasse and Joe Rogan
Beautiful backroads with the top down
Gorgeous skies
Peaceful and thought provoking
Barney and Will wanting me to take over at the nursery
Not wanting to be chained down
I think I like my Miata more than my motorcycle. This shit is amazing
Safer
More comfortable
Storage
Two people
Range
Music
GPS
No rain
Heat
Fuck the bike
Only ride when it’s perfect weather. There’s no sense in the risk if you’re not even enjoying it like that.
Van: can’t make my mind up what to do. It was only 2k but I don’t need 4 vehicles. Can I get down to just the Miata and ranger? Jack won’t have anyone to ride with but I really wish he didn’t have a bike. He’s in love with it. But that’s really a personal problem and a need for rebellion and feel for control. That’s all he feels he has right now with the kids and wife. Sad. Another reason to wait a long while for kids and wife. At least I’m doing what I want now. God damn this road is long and straight.
So peaceful. No cars. Would be amazing to bike pack here.
Not sure what to do about writing while touring. Don’t want to lug notebooks bc shipping is over 30 dollars… but I love the writing part.
I don’t mind typing like this but I’d have to print it out. Not a huge deal. I could still scribble and stuff. Thought of taking my iPad for general internet usage, possibly editing and physically writing but I don’t think it’s worth it.
ESL in other countries and vacation.
Teach in US (more money, potentially) and stay in a camper conversion and travel on weekends and summers
Work in a different state every year and change subjects often
Are there RV parks for like $100 per month? Potentially buy or bring along a motorcycle on the rear of camper to commute to work (school) or bicycle… that would be amazing
Use showers at gym or school
UNIVERSITIES? Be a professor?
I wanna drive the Miata across the US
Do California hwy 1
Dammit storm damage
I don’t even feel like I get the excitementment from motorcycles any more
Cty road 4-9
Neil talks too much
Nobody out here
Change miata belts
Tail of the dragon in car when I hang glide
Gorgeous day
I can’t believe I was in a shitty mood this morning.
For what. Why does my mind do that?
I think I just needed to talk to someone
I wish I could enjoy things like the creek and river alone. I feel like that’s got to be something shared but I’m not sure why.
Last night I was so scared at my new house. The dark and my mind was making me hear things
I used to wear sunglasses always but now never. I found it unnatural and a burden I guess
I needed this. It’s allowing my mind to wander freely and relax in a way I haven’t let myself in a while
No speed signs out here
Absolutely no police
Audio recorder for stuff like this.. and bike tour maybe write a program to make it into text also in my way of talking ie … or enter enter etc
Long lasting battery so I don’t have to use phone also
Stank’s out here
I think audio is the way to go
So I can instantaneously record what I’m thinking
These roads are amazing
Mad curvy
Gorgeous views
Fields of green and long trees
A pond like a lake in someone’s own yard
Why are we surprised when someone acts a certain way, especially when it’s accurate to their character. Either good or bad. That’s who they are
Everytime I get air on my teeth it feels as if there is ice cream igniting their receptors
Lindy power
Grandmother
Hermiony
Cleaning
Babies
Driving me crazy and I have no god damn emotion or desire to do anything
Hungry
Hermiony asks if I’ve eaten
McDonald’s
Bbq
Biscuit
Maybe all I’ve need is caffeine
BIGDOG IS HERE
Lake w mom refrigerator
I’m so conflicted
How to remember the good moments?
I want to recall these moments but to do that you must miss out on the current moment to recall an old moment.
I could record but that takes away from the active moment. Mind and absorbing power. But it helps you recall it so well, granted it’s an artificial memory almost for certain.
Photos, helps you bring back relics of related memories around the time.
Writing, not as accurate but helps you process what you’re seeing actively.
Value of recalling
Lessons
Reminisce
Don’t forget why you do something or what you did
Actively recording (whether digital or writing etc)
Helps you to store the memory a little better
STORIES
Share accurately
Pass down memories to future generations
Information
Learning
love of writing or videography etc
Free your mind of thoughts in a way, to allow for more to sublimate in your mind
JD said to recall good times
So I add: to see what trials and tribulations and struggles you have endured. To put into perspective what you’ve learned what was important to you, your goals and see the long term movement of all these things in your life.
To compare the hardships to the highs and see why you endure and your love for life continues through the hardships
Improve vocabulary and writing skills. For when I want to write a book or a plot. Inspiration to do better in future.
Love of the game.
I have bad memory. That’s enough in itself.
Stars are emerging
Popping out individually
Night sky is lit as a mf
Why do I cuss? Even when I think actively about trying not to it continues in my vocabulary like and abusive step dad
Why don’t we want ugly girls
What’s there to gain from stopping and smelling the roses?
I want to do things like set up a hammock and chill but I can’t find myself stopping to slow down. It’s enjoyable but I feel like I’ve always got to move, to be productive and that cannot be good for my mental health. I think I just answered my own question but I don’t value mental health the way I should and I don’t know how to improve upon that
Will I ever read these massive blocks of text?
Sometimes I love my life. Sometimes I don’t and then I think, I have no right to NOT love my life. I have a create family and all that shit. Perfect opportunities and still I manage to make myself feel shitty. I understand it’s normal to feel that way but when is too much and how do I deal with it when it inevitably comes?
I want to love life and when these shit days come I want to realize that they’re going to end soon and that there are so many more good times. But I don’t think that way during the good times or the bad times, just kinda when I’m transferring between states. I started writing to track when these states change. I think digital journaling will help me to do that easier. but how would I do it?
Is it cyclical or just based on environment?
I want to love someone. I don’t let myself live or be loved much. It’s tough with family. I don’t know why I fight with that.
Another example of slowing down: I’d love to sit and watch the stars all the time but it’s a thing I feel I have to do with others.. and the sky is always there what’s the desire? But if you always hold it off, the sky may as well not be there if you don’t enjoy it.
A lover for me will, I think:
Will want to experience new things
Travel and see new cultures and people
To learn and express herself creatively
Will be wholesome and considerate
Loving and empathetic
Tender and sweet
Patient
Or am I asking for only what I think I should be or want to be or AM
Well I guess that’s okay because values I hold for myself are not entirely the same as all other people hold for themselves so what’s wrong with desiring similar attributes from another person, especially a partner. I value these traits because I think they’re good to have so obviously I think they’d be attractive in a. Partner.
I want to study confidence
There’s one person I can think of that’s got hella confidence at least when I saw them. One person who would (from outwards appearances and what you hear about them) beat me out (that I I consider has beat me out) in confidence, and that’s Ross. I wonder if he’s ever faced a lake of confidence and if he goes in and out of it as I do. I am curious if it’s situational, based on the crowd, mood, etc. I noticed he was very quiet the last day of DC but he was probably hung over. Energy had a lot to do with it. Because it is an appearance thing and it takes social in some form to exert the appearance of confidence.
Zac also has that appearance. Bro looks like an experienced 35-45 year old man. Crazy shit at 22/23.
Stars in IMPECCABLE RN
I think of certain guys as confident but they’re fake with it. You ask them genuinely if they’d blind approach someone and they say now (Matthew hand comes to mind). Does being drunk count in this equation? Because a lot of people multiply confidence really fast..
A confident person:
Doesn’t give a fuck what you think
Loves themself
Not arrogant
Speaks fluently and outwardly
Shows attention to other people
Appreciates and compliments people
What would a confident person rate themself on a scale from one to ten?
I feel like they wouldn’t say 10 because while they are confident, they recognize their weaknesses and admit them
Confident in their ability and the lack thereof
This is where a truly confident person puts their trust into a person who has more skill in an area than them. Confidence in their ignorance is a huge factor.
What do I value most in this world?
Travel
Fitness
Health (through these thing)
Cycling
Helping other people achieve or recognize their dreams and potential
Writing
Storytelling
Man that quesadilla Leigh made the other day with two tortillas, shredded cheese, and damn pepper flakes was amazing. Imagine if it had grilled chicken, peppers, onions, and butter etc. god damn I gotta make that. It’ll be my weekly lunch. That would be easy as a mug and cheap
Just read thru my old baby name list (jokes) and year book quote potentially and let me say… I was a mf comedic genius and idk what my quote ended up being but I definitely kissed out not choosing those.
I need to upkeep my stupidity and love for jokes because it’s a good trait. You know I forget I’m funny sometimes because it seems natural and a lot of people laugh and tell me I’m funny and I don’t think much of it.
I should embrace it more
Hoagies
I like the idea of notion and journey as journaling apps but they are not ideally made plus they’re expensive. I could just buy twelve composition notebooks instead of $50+ per year. Or shit just use my notes.
What I like:
Journey, I like the mapping where you can see location of whatever. I like the calendar where it shows your entries.
The interface is dogshit. Makes you click on shit just by hovering or scrolling.
Search feature is great.
Media library is cool
Templates and prompts could be nice
Location, weather, wellness ratings, and activity options are cool
Wants: I want my app to do weekly wrapups and monthly, yearly etc. with highlight photos and a sort of wrap up like apple photos does and Spotify.
Maybe an entry for random stuff every week, favorite song etc
Scanning feature for written pages and an automated thing to input old journals )(probably hard)
Word and character counts
Exercise options, sync from Strava or hevy?? Or apple health, etc?
Write things I’ve learned
Places I’ve been
What I ate
(All these things should be optional if I get bored of this specific metric)
I want to be able to graph these different metrics across time and see maps, tables, charts of different food groups, exercises, locations, photo amounts, socializing amounts, mood, pages read (books), hours on phone, exercise, and analyze this for wellbeing.
I really like that you can add people to Diarium
(Stupid ass name btw)
Holy shit google time line on the Diarium is insane. I love it. This shit is so good.
Raw Journal 